Warawaseruna - Akutsu Jin

Because Jin won't tell me anything about the time he has spent in Osaka, I thought that maybe there is someone out there who could tell me something. Ne?

Just in case I'm asking you to comment anonymously - for your safety and mine, this's Jin's journal after all. And even so I'm getting more and more curious all the time so tell me something, please, anything at all!

Thanks!

P.S. Jin's quite alright but "pissed off" like he would put it himself. Hmph.

I'm not sure what the hell should I think. Things are quite different to what they were before fucking Xmas. Luckily, I should say but how does it go from now on...

( Private )

The fuck with it. This won't get through but...

Congratulations, Taichi.

That's all.

The guys at work... I'm not sure what I should do. Or think. And why did I even bother to go back there in the first place. Because I was so fucking bored.

Anyway, they'd snuck my MP3 player at some point and added an extra song there. I can't be happy at all, but well, they kinda tried to make me feel better with this shit:

( WTF is this song anyway!? )

Staying here, got no reason to go back to Tokyo. Dunno what the fuck I'm gonna do during the New Year, but this still fucking Osaka so they should have fireworks, too, huh?

I'll just go back to spitting on the damn ceiling.

Don't try to talk to me. I'm not in the mood.

( Private )

Oh fuck.

DAMN IT!

Whoever is the culprit of snatching my cigarettes will have some serious trouble after I find out who it is! It's not like I've suddenly begun to smoke more, I definitely haven't. But when I looked at some old receipts I still had in my wallet, I realized I'd bought cigs nearly every day, even today, darn it. And I'd bought a packet of cigs only yesterday in the afternoon but this morning when I woke up, I didn't have a single one!

I can't remember if I've seen Shiraishi smoking, at least we don't smoke in the room. But damn it roommate - if it's him and he needs cigs so badly, he could've asked me to give him some! When I get to see him, I gotta talk with him.

This whole fucking thing really makes me mad! It's not like I have such extra money for cigs or anything.

...should I just give up fucking smoking?

The hag's been asking me if I'm going home or not. How should I know? Maybe they need me at work and I want every damn yen I can get. And no, I'm not fucking spending them on stupid Christmas presents or such things. Well, Taichi might be excluded...though I don't have any idea what that could be.

I dunno about New Year, either. And that sucks. I might have to work - could get quite a lot of dough for staying there. But when those broads get really pissed... they're unbearable.

However, it could be refreshing to be in Tokyo at least for a couple of days. Hmph.

Do you think I'd do such foolish and childish things as writing a letter to Santa Claus? Don't make me laugh!

But anyway, I'm bored. So I ended up trying it and got ( a load of bollocks. )

Keh.

[OOC: the rest of this post is censored because of far too vulgar language. He's in a very bad mood.]

( urgent to Kawamura )

And what the fuck, it's also the 13th today, keh. Whatever.

Yesterday I was so fucking bored I went for a walk around the campus and found myself from the library. Let me emphasise the fact that it's not the kind of a place where I'd normally go. Shit happens I guess.

Because the staff over there took me seriously - I must say it did surprise me, after all I did stand out from the rest of the gang hanging between the shelves and that -, I got some literature about our politics. It would've been too much of a fucking hassle to start looking for that crap on my own. Dunno if it was worth doing any of that, like bringing the books into my room and glancing through them while I lay on the bed, though. What a bunch of crap was it, such books aren't good for anything else except kindling. Too bad I haven't seen any fireplaces around here.

But anyway, I've still kinda gotten a little bit more interested in the subject, ie. politics, - not that I'd still bother to write any essays or any other shit I'm "supposed to do", hmph - 'cause I've actually met a daughter of one of the current ministers at work and seems like she's a regular customer. She hasn't told me who her father is, and like, what the fuck's he doing, but it doesn't really matter. What she thinks and the way she handles things are a fucking lot more interesting to me, so we've shared some thoughts, mostly political, though. The fucking odd thing about her is the fact that I actually get along with her.

...can't be bothered to write more than this, I'm off, 'cause I'm hungry.

( Private to Taichi (just in case) )

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( Kawamura )

( Taichi )

I'm not in the mood to do anything right now. Better go and find a place where I can be on my own for a while, I'm getting really pissed off!

What the fuck's up with everyone... I just don't get it.

Hmph. I'd better leave the campus for a while and take a trip to Tokyo. Dammit, I can hardly remember the last time I was there! At least now I could afford it, damn it.

Aah, it's fucking late. Think I'll just take a shower and hit the sack.

I guess I don't typically do that kinda stuff, but these past 2 weeks have been far too boring. Thus I ended up going to Dir En Grey's gig on Wednesday. God damn it that I was lucky to get a ticket! Got some help from work, though, but when we happened to discuss the gig at some point last weekend, it was a piece of cake. Not such a bad job after all, even though I do get sorta pissed off every now and then...

And yeah, it's not like Dir En Grey's my favourite band or anything, but they have an attitude that I like. So they released a new single that same day or the fuck. Not bad but it lacks something... However, it was quite an alright evening for a change.

Now what? And I'm not in the fucking mood to do those memes going around!